Insecure!

I am a 26 year old mother of two kids, and let’s just say that my body will never be the same like when I was 20. My Hispanic genes have let me down and I am just so unhappy with my body right now. I tried watching what I was eating, but it got really hard, especially when my husband doesn’t like to eat healthy foods.

Anyway, so the other day I found pictures of half-naked women in Edward’s phone. I was hurt more than anything. I thought to myself, is that what he wants me to look like?

I confronted him about it and he apologized. He said he would never do that again. Hm, well that remains to be seen.

To top it off, my brother and my sister-in-law are living with me. My sis-in-law is a sweet girl. She is 20 and thin. She plays around a lot with Edward. They’re always throwing each other stuff and just basically playing around a lot. It’s gotten to the point to where it’s making me insanely jealous and uncomfortable.

I don’t know if it’s just innocent playing or if it’s crossing the line. I know what I’m “supposed” to do. I’m supposed to confront Edward and tell him that I don’t like him playing with my sis-in-law like that.

I’m afraid that by telling him that, he’s going to see me as some clingy wife. At the same time, I can’t help but feel really insecure because of the pictures I found on his phone. Did I mention I also saw that he was looking at escort services? He said it was because they have naked pics and he likes to look at them when I don’t have sex with him. He said he would never be stupid like sleep with someone else.

I told him, “I can put up with a lot as you have seen, but the minute you cheat on me, I’m gone. There’s no turning back on that.” I have always made it clear that the minute he crosses that line, he loses me.

I don’t think I have ever felt this insecure before.

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About christyrendon

I'm a 26 year old working mom of two amazing kids, Adan (2 1/2) and Christy (1).. I've been married for 3 years to Edward..

3 responses to “Insecure!

  1. Sometimes I read my posts and I wonder how can I be so dumb to stay with him.

  2. I always say the same thing,you cheat it’s over. I also feel insecure about my body,i still haven’t lost my pregnancy weight.

  3. Unfortunately this is one of the HUGE reason I left Joe. I would find porn on his phone like you wouldnt even believe… If I checked his history he would have MASSIVE amounts of porn sites on there. I confronted him… he made some bull face lie up. I would wake up, and see him looking at porn when I was RIGHT next to him. It really only gets worse. In the beginning, it was just a few pictures… over the months it became SO much more. I didnt find out that he cheated on me until AFTER I left him… and it had happened a year prior. I wouldnt trust me in the slightest… Been there, done that.

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