Why do we dumb ourselves to be with a man? Is it because we don’t think we deserve better or can get a nicer guy? Is it because we are afraid of starting all over again?
I’m thinking about when I confronted him about seeing “casual encounters” links and he said it was just to see naked pictures. Now that I think about it, I think to myself, “Are you STUPID? Do you really think that he was just looking for naked pictures??”
I mean, I thought that our sex life was pretty good although we don’t do it as much because we share our bed with our kids.
When I told him I found that link, he said, “You really think I would be so stupid to meet up with someone like that? They do these links just to catch someone because it’s illegal.”
At the time we had that confrontation, I had forgiven him. I just can’t forget, especially because of how insecure it’s made me feel.
I used to feel that his fidelity was the one thing I could always count on. Now, I’m not so sure.