I feel like curling up and crying and feeling sorry for myself, but that won’t do anybody any good. I need to be strong for our kids. I need to pretend that everything is okay.
I know my past few posts have been depressing, but I can’t help but feel this way because of the tough situation we are in.
Edward is due to get home any moment and I don’t want him here. I feel that he’s largely responsible for our difficult situation. I usually forgive and forget and find a way to move on, but this time it isn’t the same. I truly feel that I’m falling out of love with him. He’s a terrible provider for our family. I’m tired of living this lifestyle. It makes me feel like such a bad mom. I feel like crying while admitting that.
My kids are so sweet and deserve the best.
I’m this close to letting my teardrops fall, but I can’t cry. I need to remain positive and keep trying for my sweet innocent kids.