After work yesterday, we went to Brownsville to my mom’s house. From there, we all went to Golden Corral to celebrate my birthday. We had a really good time. I love how easy I get along with my siblings, and my mom too when she’s in a good mood. My mom got me a bunch of clothes, a watch, and a necklace.. My brother got me a scarf.. my sister got me an eyeliner from Sephora (I’m an eyeliner freak).. JC gave me a homemade birthday card (which I absolutely love receiving) and $20.
This morning, I got a call from a customer asking for directions. In the caller ID it stated a name that I hadn’t seen in like 3 years. Let’s just say CJ. This girl had gone to Peru with me to study abroad back when I was in college. When I saw CJ in the caller ID I kinda froze. Not because I was excited, but because I didn’t want to see a former colleague in a store where I worked. I am 24 years old and I have like 42 credits under my belt. I have yet to gradute. I should’ve graduated like 2 years ago. I felt EMBARRASSED, I am ashamed to admit. So I told Alfredo to cover for me and attend to them before she saw me. I didn’t want to have to explain why I was working here, why I didn’t graduate, when I was going to graduate, and she is a teacher I think. Isn’t that sad? I am embarrassed of my position. I should be a professional by now. But I’m not.
I was talking with Edward yesterday and I told him we need to get internet back in the house so we can finally get the ball rolling and I can go to school online and graduate. According to the University of Phoenix, I should be graduating with a bachelor’s in 2 years. I NEED to graduate to give our son everything he deserves. I’m tired of this paycheck-to-paycheck bullshit. I don’t want to be like this forever. I don’t want our son to live like this or think this is normal. NO. It’s not. I could do better. ADAN is my motivation.
I NEED TO MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR ADAN AND ME.